#thepowerofpresense: how I plan to transform my life

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Stone steps climbing up to Quarry Gap Shelter, PA on the Appalachian Trail

Through all my blog reading, YouTube videos and self-examination I have come to realize that, although I have made progress and I am satisfied with what I am doing and trying to accomplish in my personal life/journey, there is some repetition or cycles of “behavior” that I’d like to eradicate/limit. I write on this blog and I try to be transparent without airing everything and I prefer to be positive and diplomatic despite some days feeling quite hopeless and anxious. My blog is really more of a journal so it’s comprised of my thoughts and emotions which lately have been more bleak. I haven’t gone back and re-read any of my posts although I tell myself that I should ~ and trash some ‘bad’ posts ~ so I don’t know the ratio of “good” to “bad” posts; posts that people would enjoy vs posts that are just about complaining. I got to thinking about this specifically because I read a post about dealing with negative people and because no one has all good days and we need to vent sometimes I wondered where on a scale of negative to positive I fall. Am I a negative person? Do I negatively impact people ‘around’ me (in person or people who read my blog)? Am I tedious to be around?

How we perceive ourselves is rarely how others perceive us therefore I can think that I am not a negative person but others may disagree. I normally don’t place a lot of value on what other people think because I, in my opinion, don’t believe a lot of people are open-minded and have good reasoning skills, they form opinions off-the-cuff, more judgments than a reasonable evaluation of someone. But if I’m honest with myself ~ and I try to be ~ I would agree that I do not really know how I am without keeping some kind of daily record so I can see a pattern of my thoughts, feelings and behaviors.

Sometime in-between sleep and wakefulness I had some thoughts about chronicling my days in an organized way on my blog thereby giving it a theme and maybe even making it more interesting to read knowing there is a challenge and a destination: the exercise of being present and documenting how I feel and what I do about it in the course of a day. If I am trying to; overcome a cycle of negative self-talk, take control of my life, be healthier physically and emotionally (and spiritually, socially) then it would be helpful to chart a course and monitor how I am doing daily. It’s all about small steps, one after the other and, unavoidably some mistakes and missteps, not big demands on myself, just go from minute to minute with purpose. There will be some editing but I thought I’d start with some of the more obvious items that effect me and my future, some things that I need to change, revise, include or omit but having an outline will enable me to see where I need to invest more thought, time and effort.

Diet, Exercise, Attitude, Activities, Gratitude, Social

It is my intent to be in the moment for as much of my day as I can, to acknowledge my feelings and why, my thoughts and purposeful redirection and my goals and visualization and to take each moment as an opportunity to improve my life one minute at a time. This is the only way my intentions can become my habits.

#thepowerofpresence

(a few) photos of my AT adventure

Weekly Photo Challenge: 2017 favorites/meaningful

With so many not published here, I chose a variety. So many bad weather days, I didn’t pull out my phone/camera much on those days.

 

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all campsites require hikers to hang their food but very, very, very few supplied any easily accessible way to do it – instead they complain that hikers won’t comply which creates a ‘bear problem’. tree limbs most times are far and few and too weak to hold multiple hiker food bags.
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early morning departure. (do you see any heavy limbs to hang food bags here?)
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“old halfway point” (check out the swollen eyelids – very difficult to see in the morning)

 

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so beautiful

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Many-a-days the trail looked worse than this

 

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2nd guy in from left: Cujoe, me, Tai Chi, and JD on far right. The three BEST guys any woman could wish to find while hiking solo on the AT

 

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These were my cramped quarters. I don’t recommend a one-person tent for backpacking.

 

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looks like “Rocksylvania”

 

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AT version of the “hillbillies”

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record number of cold and constantly rainy days in the spring of 2017
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solar dryer

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‘never quit on a bad day’ – so I waited for this one, then decided to go home.
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This is where the cab picked me up.

Experimental photo

 

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I was trying to create a “love your neighbor” in the palm of my hand. I would have loved to have taken a photo of a hands-heart surrounding the rock but I don’t have three hands and it wasn’t so easy to get this shadow in the right place either: maneuvering myself so I wasn’t blocking but using my hand outside of the frame in the setting sun.

weekly photo challenge: experimental