- What is going well in your life… right now?
My answer earlier would have been different but ‘right now?’…I’m at work and I got several texts from my SIL and photos of my cat…he was sitting on a paper bag in a puddle of his own urine and my SIL said he was ‘not looking good’. He finally got a hold of my son who left work 1.5 hours away to go home. I knew this was the end…not that there were any indications before. I am so, so upset because I would have been home last night if I knew he wasn’t himself. I keep wondering how long he was in pain. I keep thinking that I wish I had some more time with him. He was a great cat – just the kind of cat most people love to have – but he drove me nuts sometimes because he ALWAYS wanted to be on me, on my lap, on my shoulders, lying on me when I was in bed. He always wanted attention…or so I thought. Now, in my guilt, I am thinking he just loved me, loved us – his people, and he wanted to be close. I feel so fucking mean…so fucking selfish! Why do we not understand that time isn’t limitless, that spending time with our animals and family will one day be no more. Bert…I wish I could hold him one more time. I wish I could look into his eyes and tell him I love him and snuggle him – he loved that…he purred, and purred so loudly.
- What area in your life could use a little improvement? perspective
- What is something you know for sure? I’ll never get used to death and regrets.