just feeling blah

Okay, here I am, writing a post about nothing just to fulfill the month’s prompt challenge. I posted a …well, post once asking for feedback about blogging, specifically, why people (who don’t have a platform like making money, disseminating information, etc) write blogs…what’s the draw? I ask because I like to get on here and ‘write’ but it’s really just a form of a journal, a spewing about a bad day or sometimes I feel more creative and write some fiction. I like the ‘community’ of people here…read other’s blogs, have them read and comment on mine but I don’t have any ‘format’ nor do I always have anything to say. Therefore, the writing challenge turns into just that, a challenge.

My big accomplishment today was bathing my two dogs. First I plopped them on a counter and trimmed their faces but I left the rest of them all scraggly because I was limited on time (and energy). I hate bathing them because I don’t have a large sink so I have to sit on a stool in the tub (in my underwear) and wash one at a time and work like hell getting them rinsed because I don’t have a hose in my tub so it’s a plastic cup – unless I can get them shoved under the faucet which, naturally, they are not inclined to allow me to do – all the while I’m bent over so it is literally a pain in the back. Anyway…job done, they smell and feel better to me and they seem to feel better themselves as they appear to be smiling once it’s all over and done and they are dried and warm again.

Now I’m back on babysitting detail because…well, who cares. I have been trying to renew my New Year’s energy and ambition about getting stuff done, feeling good about myself, my life, etc. but I just can’t seem to swing it lately. I’m not depressed – I don’t have a valid reason to be ‘low’ or ‘blue’ or even lazy but I have just enough energy to watch movies or lie and listen to audio books. I so wish I was “one of those people” who pop out of bed in the morning with a zest for life and squeezing every minute out of the day. I don’t know if it’s lack of sunshine or social life or (not likely) love life or A love of life or maybe I’m just a naturally boring, unmotivated person.

So…that’s why I get on here…read other posts or spew my own drivel all over…looking for inspiration.

Ugh.

#FOWC: valid fowc

#JusJoJan.20: scraggly

Author: KC

I am a cautiously optimistic skeptic, snow-loving, mid-aged dog & nature lover, thinker & writer-of-deep-thoughts or quick, quirky mind-wonderings, tiny-home-dreamer, book-devouring loner.

12 thoughts on “just feeling blah”

  1. Wow! It’s good to hear from you on someone else’s prompt! You sound like me trying to bath my dogs, and they are Shorkies! Mine are kind of scraggly too because I’m not a talented groomer, I mainly try to keep the hair out of their eyes and too much hair on their feet until we can afford to take em to the groomer. I sit on the edge of the tub with my feet in the water and use a cup and a washcloth to get er done. Lol. Still a pain in the back though.

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  2. Aha! I see now why you were asking me about my “system.” That get-out-of-bed-with-energy thing is the best feeling in the world and I tackle my spreadsheet whenever I ain’t doing that.

    Here’s the simple breakdown, one I came up with about 20 years ago (and later found a similar method in a book I was reading):

    Break down your life into its key attributes or elements. Not just the normal ones, but the ones that REALLY matter to you. I have key attributes like “revelry” and “camaraderie” as well as “home” and “marriage.” If I remember correctly I have 11 such attributes (I’m not at home in front of it right now). To further elucidate the example I don’t include stuff like “relationship with my children” or “community involvement” since those don’t much matter to me but to others those things are incredibly important, so they would choose them.

    I then take those attributes, the stuff that is really important to ME (and you gotta know yourself, first and foremost!), and rank each category 1 to 4. 1 is LOUSY. 2 is OKAY, but needs attention. 3 is GOOD, but could be a little better. 4 is PERFECT, couldn’t ask for better.

    Once I had that list and baseline I focused on improving any attribute in my life that didn’t have a 3 or a 4. If my job ranks a 1 (it did) I need another job. If my house was a 2 (it was) I need to start looking into a move. If my marriage wasn’t right (been there) I need to mend some fences. Etc Etc.

    One by one those attributes that weren’t right got better, because of my focus to improve them.

    These days, and for a couple of years now, I’m riding on mostly 4’s with a 3 or two (I could exercise more and improve my “health”). The spreadsheet reads 90-100% Quality of Life (I call it my QoL scale). I tend to jump of bed. For simplicity sake I interpret my percentage of QoL as the number of happy days I have out of 10. At 90% (current ranking) I think of myself as having 9 good days out of every 10 (sounds about right).

    The catch is, of course, you have to really know yourself first and know the attributes that most matter to you. And then you have to really want to improve and then work at improving each attribute that falls shy. You know the old saying, you gotta want it.

    I have a good friend, one of my very best, who adores my QoL but is generally unhappy and generally that’s where he wants to be. Big hugs.

    At any rate, that’s the breakdown, and one thing that REALLY worked for me. Not overnight, but over time. I remember when 60-70% was unbelievably exciting! 🤣🤣🤣

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    1. Thanks so much for this ‘comment’ – LOL…I will most definitely follow through with this (and likely write about it later so, material too!). If you happen to remember the book I might check into it but, honestly, I’ve read so much ‘self-help/motivation’ I don’t feel that there is anything new out there.
      Thanks again Tom!!

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      1. Pretty sure it was this one (I’ve read a lot of ’em, too!):

        https://www.stevepavlina.com/personal-development-for-smart-people/

        I don’t remember it being revolutionary or anything but I do remember finding that one section and saying “Aha! That’s kind of what I invented!”

        Incidentally, my attributes (there has to be a better word for that) are (in no particular order):

        Camaraderie, Money, Health, Home, Personal Growth, Job, Marriage, Outlook, Revelry, Self-Esteem.

        And, remember, your attributes are in relative to yourself and no one else. In other words, I have a perfect “4” for Money, though I am nowhere close to rich. I have enough income and savings for Tom (and Mrs C), though others might find the same amount insufficient.

        Good luck, sister!

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      2. I am calling them ‘facets’…the multiple facets of life and I understand about the ‘individuality’ of this exercise. Thanks for the follow up!!! 🙂

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  3. PS I blog because I like to write, and I love to take pictures, and I have a cute dog, and it’s sort of like a calendar for me…I can look back at it and see what we’ve been doing or what we did a year ago…or for me, ten years ago. Plus I’ve met plenty of people and learned more about them than I do on Facebook or Instagram.

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    1. Yes, I have noted that some bloggers use this medium as a sort of diary of their lives. That’s basically what I do but I don’t always give daily details: it doesn’t change much from day to day.

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