December 31: a brand new you, effective tomorrow

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Tomorrow is the first day of a brand new year. Tomorrow you get to become anyone in the world that you wish. Who are you? If you decide to stay “you” share your rationale.

Happy (almost) New Year to All!!

It took 54 years but I finally did something ‘extreme’ and followed my heart for once. I’ve posted this before but it’s the last day of 2017 and, well, I’m proud of myself for what I did this year so I’m going to mention it again: I quit my job and hiked the AT – a portion of the AT – for six weeks. It’s the most memorable thing I’ve ever done and the one thing that had the most impact on me and my personal growth. I’ve also started this blog and have kept it going for (almost) one year now. I put myself ‘out-there’ and made a few new friends (which I still have) and I have a new grandchild, a little preemie girl.

I’ve changed in this last year; I’ve challenged myself to dare to leave my uncomfortable comfort zone and, although its tough and it’s not always exactly what I wanted, I’ve learned that it’s okay. I will now and forever not just go along to get along but I will open another door, take another step in an unknown and scary direction if I feel I am not growing, learning or becoming happy. I still have to redirect the voices in my head that focus on the ‘oh no, what ifs’ and change the mantra to ‘what if everything is better than I expected?’, I still read little positive quotes everyday to push away the gray, and I still sometimes doubt but I have learned to leave the worry because I can only do the best I can do and that’s good enough.

After all this, all these years being myself, all that I have accomplished on my own, all that I have learned about me, all the troubles I’ve endured and all the growth I’ve had, I feel that I have finally ‘made it,’ I’ve finally become comfortable with who I am and I’ve decided that, despite what other people think or feel, I am one helluva unique person. I like being me and I wouldn’t want to be anyone else — not even if I was paid for it. There is no guarantee that someone’s life is better than mine even if it looks like it is. I’m accustomed to my faults and failings and I don’t need to cast them aside and start all over with someone else’s problems — and everyone has them.

I’m not a New Year’s Eve celebrator but there is something about opening that brand new calendar (The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People) to a fresh new month and year – I like it.

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