I’m still in a funk, I’ve avoided writing so I wouldn’t piss-n-moan all over the place but I just need to whine. I have no reason to feel down, depressed, blue, etc. I just feel this way and I’m constantly talking to myself (in my head) about it. Yes, it’s the holidays, yes, it’s winter, yes, we have about six hours of daylight now, yes, I’m unemployed, yes, I’m alone, yes, all of this adds up to some less-than jolly emotions but I have so much good stuff too. I try to figure out how and why the, so called, negative stuff seems to outweigh the positive stuff and I can’t. I read positive affirmations, I read amusing stories and blogs, I watch interesting but not depressing movies, I walk my dogs and I’m just sluggish and whiney (all on the inside because no one wants to see/hear this). Sometimes I think my moral compass’ orientation is skewed, irrevocably bent – heading south, making it hard, if not impossible, to find my way. It’s so pathetic and I know it but I’m plodding along, thinking positive thoughts: in time this will change, make the most of what I have, blah blah blah.