pertetually heading south

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whining alert!

I’m still in a funk, I’ve avoided writing so I wouldn’t piss-n-moan all over the place but I just need to whine. I have no reason to feel down, depressed, blue, etc. I just feel this way and I’m constantly talking to myself (in my head) about it. Yes, it’s the holidays, yes, it’s winter, yes, we have about six hours of daylight now, yes, I’m unemployed, yes, I’m alone, yes, all of this adds up to some less-than jolly emotions but I have so much good stuff too. I try to figure out how and why the, so called, negative stuff seems to outweigh the positive stuff and I can’t. I read positive affirmations, I read amusing stories and blogs, I watch interesting but not depressing movies, I walk my dogs and I’m just sluggish and whiney (all on the inside because no one wants to see/hear this). Sometimes I think my moral compass’ orientation is skewed, irrevocably bent – heading south, making it hard, if not impossible, to find my way. It’s so pathetic and I know it but I’m plodding along, thinking positive thoughts: in time this will change, make the most of what I have, blah blah blah.

Daily prompt: compass

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  1. Just a suggestion move to Washington State or other state where recreational weed is legal. The other option look in the mirror, realize you are still on this side of the grass, kick yourself in the ass and walk part of the trail or in the woods. I’m not real sure what this means but listen to the quiet, it works for me. Reading Whitman’s Leaves Of Grass can also work.

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    1. Oh Phil, you made me smile. I will find that poem and read it. I walk in the woods almost everyday – it’s my church. Now, what is this recommendation about weed? Help depression? I’m glad you read me 🙂

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    2. Per Wikipedia: “Although the first edition was published in 1855, Whitman spent most of his professional life writing and re-writing Leaves of Grass, revising it multiple times until his death. This resulted in vastly different editions over four decades—the first a small book of twelve poems and the last a compilation of over 400.”
      Which edition/copywrite date do you recommend?

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  2. Take 5000 IU of Vit. D. everyday. You won’t believe it. I’m a broken record on this because my doctor told me to take this much for osteoporosis. It improved my mood a lot!
    I love weed and walking but don’t start any bad habits now.

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