I’m feeling underappreciated today; no particular reason really. I found out that a position I’d applied for has been filled so that job is now off the table and my daughter will be coming home Thursday without the baby so I’ve been cleaning and doing laundry (baby clothes).
I know that life for a few weeks will be hectic and stressful because the ‘older brother’ is not going to adjust well to no longer being the sole recipient of anyone’s attention (and he’s prone to some tantrums and yelling already) and my daughter is a ‘control freak’ (her words – kinda) and is not very patient nor tolerant of other’s lack of meeting her high standards (in particular, her husband) plus the in-laws will visit more often to ‘see the baby’ or give brother extra attention so he doesn’t feel so bad and I have to bite my tongue and make allowances for oddities. All this takes place in a house that is now a little smaller with the extra person and all her accoutrements but, more importantly, still my house where I still live but do not exert much influence.
Oh, and I had an oil change/tire rotation today and the ‘garage’ found things that need to be done to the tune of >$1,100.00. Those are shelved for now.
So the combination of being the ‘helper’ (housecleaner, launderer, grocery shopper, and filler-In-er for other small things) but not being included in many day-to-day conversations and ‘plans’ in addition to now not having the job that I was planning on (so now I am threshing out other options in my mind) using to get-away and would have been depending on for income….well, I feel like a sheet hanging out in the wind right now.
I am not implying that I have no say in what goes on but I try to not interfere with the day-to-day lives of the married couple/family unless it directly involves me but I’m not a piece of furniture either. The commotion and stress does get to me. I’ve been doing what I can because I can and I do want to but I am ready to get a job and get back to my life. Hence, being a little bummed right now.
I short-term plan is to find work which will involve ‘travel’ to another location and in the meantime get out of the house as much as possible to avoid the chaos. My daughter will have to figure out how to mother two children the same way most of us did; trial and error.
What all this has to do with inheritance? I wish I had an inheritance and I sometimes think that I will not be able to leave my children anything for inheritance. I sometimes hope that they will appreciate what I have done for them in their lives while I am living because it is to these children that I’ve spent my time, energy and money.